Lady Savina never solved her situation, and despite many promises, never made it so her and I could truly be together.

I've come to accept the fact that the woman I've loved for over 18 years has lied to me countless times, and broken every major promise she's made to me.

So we split up, which ... really, we haven't been together for years, but she made it official, letting me know in a text message that we're no longer a romantic couple, but are at least still "best friends." This was a relief to me, because I couldn't bring myself to break it off officially with her, as I didn't want to hurt her, or us, and I'm still very much in love with how we used to be.

I started dating again after all these years, and have met and become friends with positive, wonderful ladies.

Learning this, Lady Savina suddenly wanted me back, and has turned it around to say that I dropped her, not the other way around. So I talk to my therapist about this, and am informed that what I'm telling her indicates classic narcissistic behavior, particularly in that she's never to blame for anything, it's always someone else's fault. And my sister comes out to say that she's always felt Lady Savina is actually toxic, but my sister was hesitant to say this before because of how much I obviously loved Lady Savina.

I am so surprised that Xanga is still here and I still have an account. This is the perfect place for me to openly post about this, especially since our entire relationship is documented here.

Actually, in a way it did. The world as we knew it ended, and now this is a "new reality," and the "new reality" is starting to look just like the old one, but worse.

I think I may actually be the very last person on Xanga.

Hellloooo, is there anyone out there?

So here we are at the possible end of the world. It seems every generation throughout history, there’s been a certain segment which believes they’re seeing the actual end times. How lucky is it that we may actually be the one and true generation who does see it.

I know that’s a weird thing to say, but if you think about it we all die anyway. Pretty bizarre that we get to go out with a really major human fuck up. The tragedy is it was also predictable, and preventable. But we didn’t prevent it. It’s like we said, “Bring it on.”

It makes me think that humanity as a whole has a death wish.

I’m just sad for the children.

Xanga, in its heyday, was a wonderful place full of great people.

I miss you, Xanga people. I'm still in touch with a handful of you, but we had a great community here. It wasn't like Facebook. It wasn't like anything else that is out there right now, because communities here were pretty close. We became parts of each other's lives.

That seems to be gone now. I think it's because "BLOGGING" became something people did for money; it became a career. That brought a whole shitbag of changes that eventually destroyed Xanga. The moment they split Xanga into "Momaroo" and whatever the other professional-ish sub-Xangas were called, it was the beginning of a quick end.

I bought a lifetime subscription, and despite what they said, they're honoring it. At least until the year 2029, according to my profile.

So look, amazing! Someone posted something new on Xanga!

I can't even tell, in this new system, if I'm the only one.

ADDENDUM (added in April 2023): I just stole this from myself and reposted a slightly updated version on Medium.com

I have had a weird career path.

As a child, I wanted to be a scientist.

As a young teen, I wanted to be a science fiction writer.

As an older teen, I wanted to be a photographer and videographer.

In my early twenties I became a professional photographer and videographer, and hated it so much I sold my cameras and darkroom equipment.

In my mid twenties I bought my first computer specifically to use it as a word processor. The computer was such a piece of junk I learned the basics of computer tech just to keep it working.

In my late twenties I sold my first science fiction story, but I was making my living driving a vacuum truck.

I left the vacuum truck job and became a computer technician. I was a computer technician for nearly 20 years, while I continued to sell short stories and finally a novel.

Then, as a hobby, I began to play around with building these newfangled things called "websites."

Website building became a full time job, and I was then deemed, "Webmaster."

The publishing industry imploded and I started publishing my own books, instead of begging at the door of the publishing gatekeepers. I've been far more successful with the self-published books than the one that the big New York publisher published.

Being a webmaster led me to becoming a digital marketing manager.

Digital marketing has made me go back into photography and videography. That is now what I primarily do, I make videos for websites.

It's weird, I've come full circle. Everything I was interested in, except for driving a vacuum truck, has built a solid foundation for the career I'm in now.

Next, I suppose, I'll become a scientist.

YOUR TURN. What has been your strange and convoluted path through life?

Just in case anyone has been following this 8+ year saga, the good Lady and I are still together but still not yet married because of her circumstances. I'd moved away to Chicago for my career, with the understanding that she'd join me, but that ended up not happening.

So it's been a long distance relationship again, though not anywhere near as long a distances as it was when we first started.

The long distance part is ending next week, as I've been promoted and my new office is back where she lives.

Okay I'm confused. I was (am?) a "lifetime" Xanga member.

• Xanga management stated they would not honor the "lifetime" membership after the move to Xanga 2.0.
• Xanga stated that, in order to post to your blog, you'd have to be a paying member.
• I got pissed off and migrated to WordPress.
• I said goodbye to Xanga.
• Today I randomly checked my old link, found everything still here, and also found I somehow have a premium account paid through until the year 2029.

Does this mean they're honoring the lifetime memberships anyway, despite what they'd earlier said?

The only real problem I have ever had with Xanga is that they say one thing and do another. Even if this is working out in my favor, it's still irritating, because of all the time and effort I made to migrate away from their platform.

Here's sending some <3 to Skycat Blaze for being the only person who seemed sad to see I was leaving. Hugs to you girl. Many hugs. I hope everything in your world is getting better.

I was under the impression that if I didn't pay for the Xanga 2.0 membership, I couldn't post to my Xanga site anymore.

Huh. Looks like I can after all.

Lady Savina and I migrated over to WordPress.com, and it was painless.

http://wickedglee.wordpress.com - me

http://ladysavina.wordpress.com - The Lady

If you immigrate there as well, look us up!